future

future is a lot of things, its what you will see, what you will be, what will happen and so on. the future is rather uncertain for me, my parents are flipping out at the last moment. owh son its expensive come home dont take post grads. work and build up some corporate bullshit that i think could be cooked up from years of business propaganda.

business propaganda, when you wake up and think why you arent working as well for the company or think that the company is the greatest thing since sliced bread you are hooked. The "kim jong il" machine of business has got joo and now you have to be a slave to the ever growing and greed loving corporate machine.

now why is this tone of anger or uncertainly sounds familiar? parents, they just love to come in and screw everything up at the last moment. then they start claiming that they know you the most and think they can make plans for you.

i doubt mine knows that i cant do shit in Bahasa Melayu.
i doubt mine knows that whatever hint of malaysian ideal was never in me.
i doubt mine knows that i hate being in a muslim faggy country with faggy people
i doubt mine knows that i hate malaysia.

there i said it, i hate malaysia. i hate it since young, all along its one of my goals of my lifetime get the fuck out of there far far away and not damn come back. and now the oppournity is knocking at my door my folks have to come in and say hey you know its expensive why not try your chances at home.

i feel like just shouting at them for their ignorance.

now why cant i survive in a country that i spent my 23 years in? simple, i cant speak, write or use the language. open a malay book ask me to read it and i can spew gibberish that can rival a rabid chimp! yes it is that bad and i doubt that they know this.

and theres more, i hate the malaysian lifestyle. the everyday conservertive papers make me want to cry and pull my eyes out, the everyday conservertive and retarded people make me want to be a facist. malaysia is like a country of red necks and hill bilies, instead of "yaw, nigger git off ma loot" it woulud be "u ppl get away ar from my thing"

retarded.